“I feel the earth move under my feet i feel the sky tumblin’ down a tumblin down” -Carol King
Over the last couple of weeks i would say that I have learned some valuable lessons. Life lessons. Nothing that’s really huge but little things that make a huge difference when living life. It has become apparent to me that in order to exist with a decent amount of inner peace you have to be OK when you don’t have control. Yesterday I experienced my first earthquake. At first I thought it was the upstairs neighbor stomping around until the rumble forced me out of my chair. Then I could feel the building swaying as I looked out on the balcony and saw the condos next door shaking from side to side. Incidents like these create a feeling of hopelessness and shear panic that you have NO idea what could happen or what will happen… but whatever happens, how are you gonna deal with it? In these fleeting seconds that disguise themselves as minutes, nothing is important. Everything goes away. And whatever you were just doing can wait a minute. I would imagine to a worse degree those that are going down in a crashing plane experience something similar to this venerability. But it is in this state that our truths surface. Sometimes its just not in our hands after all. You have to take that step onto the bridge to cross over even though all you see is the canyon below. Like in the Indiana Jones movie where he’s searching for the Holy Grail. As I approach my final days in California I have embraced my current state of the unknown. 2,500 miles away from home with my musical instruments loaded in a car, I have never felt so powerful and lost at the same time. Just when you think you have something figured out, you realize that it is possible for the softest sand to eat the soles off your Pumas while you walk a moonlit beach. Or when your head hangs low and you feel all alone, the lights turn on slow and you look around to realize you’ve been poised up by all those people that don’t mind standing really really close to you.
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